|Right here, right now -- where I am|
Three years ago (three years already!) I went part-time for a year so I could do Art Foundation. Even though everyone else on the course was eighteen and I was in my forties (meaning, of course, that they mostly ignored me), it's probably the best thing I've ever done, making me feel at the time that I was finally taking the path I'd always wanted to take.
|Foundation final show -- my work (not the chair)|
|'Cabinet of curiosities' inspired by London South Bank Centre|
The first time I threaded up the machine, I got some wadding and a couple of bits of fabric, just as we'd done on the course, to test the tension of the stitches. As soon as the needle hit the layers, I knew something was wrong. The needle wouldn't gallop over the cloth the way the one on the course had: it was sluggish and unwilling. I felt the needle would break if I carried on. Once again, bitter disappointment and that awful sense of having made a mistake because you didn't know what you were really doing. Instead of pressing on, trying a different fabric combo, persevering, I just gave up. And I haven't really done anything creative since then.
It's been a bad hiatus. There's been other stuff going on -- won't go into it here -- but I do mark that moment at the sewing machine as some sort of defeat of the spirit. A quite unnecessary one, but when were spiritual defeats ever logical? The fact is I've done nothing for nearly a year.
It's got to stop. This blog is a good stick with which to 'encourage' myself, if not beat myself up. I think I will try to do some Christmas card artwork as a doable project.
These are my Christmas cards from two years ago:
PS: I did eventually find out about a way to transfer images -- you paint over the image you want to transfer (or a copy of it) with a few layers of clear acrylic 'medium'. When it's completely dry, you soak the whole thing in water then rub away the paper from the back of the picture and the image is left behind on the dried acrylic sheet. Bit tricky but good effect.